What’s this funk I’m in?

Ever have one of those nights, where you really want to read something, yet as soon as you start reading your brain kicks in and tells you that you should be writing instead?

That’s been me for the past three nights. 

But when I grab my notebook and try to work on any one of the many WIP’s I have, nothing but jibberish comes out. 
And free writing is about the same… or worse really, since the whole point of free writing is to scribble jibberish and let your muse find its way out. 

I don’t know if I’m in a funk or if something inside me is trying to tell me something πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ
I suppose tonight I will try revisiting my stack of notes and random story ideas to see if one of them is trying to resurrect from the depths of my mind. Write Naked- By Jennifer Probst


Happy Birthday Bella!!!

All I can say is YEAH!!!! We’re 1 year old today and I’m just as excited as her. 😊

She’s made so much progress over the past 8months with both her behavior and health. I’m glad we have each other.

So here’s some selfie shots from the past year πŸ˜…
My adoption photo 😊

The moment mom fell in love πŸ’œ

First day on the job πŸ˜‚

So photogenic πŸ’œ

This will ALWAYS be my favorite photo of her. So beautiful. 

Oh how the time flys by 😊

And people think pit bulls are aggressive *shakes head*

Bella and Hedwig cuddling on the couch. These two are practically inseparable 
And today before my pizza party 😍😊

Couldn’t decide between a steak dinner or pizza to celebrate!  So I went with the one that didn’t involve me cooking lol 

Jen 

Not much to say…

Long time no post 😊 lol

I’ve been super MIA lately! I can’t seem to think of anything worth posting or rambling about … 

So here’s a picture of Bella 😊 

Baby girl will be a year old next Wednesday! I’m so excited!  And surprised at how quick the time has flown by. 

She’s been doing SOO much better in the health department, from what I can tell. Going in tomorrow for a check up and vaccines (fingers crossed no more medications will be needed), Currently she’s on nothing but whole food supplements and omega 3s.  πŸ‘πŸΌ And they do seem to be making a difference with her. 

We’re still learning how to jog properly, without tripping up mom lol and occasionally she finds a tennis shoe she prefers over her bone πŸ˜‘ but for the most part she’s a doll 😊

From our run this morning – she wanted those baby geese so bad πŸ™ˆ  I think we should lay off the squeaker toys for a while lol.  

Jen

Work day with mom and a check up!

So here we are again, Baby Bella (who isn’t so much a baby anymore) spent the day with me at work again  πŸ˜Š It’s been so long since I’ve taken her with me! 

She was the image of a perfect lady (for the most part lol) and she got a chance to meet her new sister, which is the new pit puppy of one of my coworkers πŸ’œπŸΆ

Hopefully they will become better friends once the new pup isn’t so nervous around a bigger pup ☺️

As for her check up… it went differently than I had hoped. But not as bad as I worried. 

We’ve been battling UTI’s and hormone issues since I adopted her, along with her abnormal front leg (which thankfully causes her no issues).  This last month she has been doing really well in the UTI department and off medications for the whole month πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ˜Š

But, unfortunately we’re not out of the woods yet.   Yes, her UTI’s have cleared and her bladder seems to be in tip top shape! But now it’s her lady bits that are causing an issue and requiring more hormones and possible medications to correct … πŸ˜‘ sigh. 


Tomorrow I will be consulting with a supplement company that my clinic works with very closely and hopefully finding something that could prove helpful to her vs on going medications. 

Oh the issues with spaying a girl to young πŸ˜₯ she’s being a trooper with all of this. But it breaks my heart to think this could all be due to early spaying. 

I understand the counties reasoning for doing so, but I wish there was a way I could have signed something promising to do so when she was of age. Or had my veterinary sign something for me…

But we can’t change the past, all we can do is work to create a better future. 

Now, please don’t take this as a reason to not adopt a pet. Far from that! 

Take this as one of the reasons why pets should be adopted from shelters! So they can have a loving home that will help them with whatever they need. 

I mean, who knows what would have happened to her if I hadn’t found her? Would she have been dumped again for urinating all over the house? 

Would it have all gone unnoticed and she would have been in pain, living with an infection that kept getting worse?

Who knows. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ Maybe someone like me would have gotten her and she would be right where she is now, getting the medical care she needs and a little extra TLC.

It’s hard to say what the outcome would have been.  But I am glad she’s with me and I’m able to help her through all this πŸ’œ

The puppy diaries 

When writing becomes more than a hobby

More and more these days I’m referring to my writing as my second job.  Not because I look at it with discontent but because I want others to look at my writing time with respect and understanding.

I know many of you writers feel the same, where your friends and family don’t understand why you must spend so much time researching and quietly working on your craft.

And why you must disengage in certain social activities because your muse is calling your name to complete a scene.

I spend 6 days a week focusing on my day job. The hours depend on the day and can be anywhere from 6hrs (on my one short day) to 10 or 12hrs (on my normal days)…

And for my writing, I spend maybe an hour a day… if I’m lucky enough to not find myself too tired after my day job. .  

And that saddens me. Why must I sacrifice my dream just so I can live to work?

And why do people only take a job that pays well as an actual profession?

Just because my writing doesn’t bring in a steady pay check right now doesn’t mean that it won’t one day.

And I will continue to hold on to that feeling no matter what.

And so, my writing becomes my second job. A job that requires all the attention and focus that my day job does.

Meaning- no phones buzzing off , no TV playing my favourite classics and very minimal music to distract me.

That also means No friends buzzing in and out of my house.

In other words… Hermit mode is commencing

Jen

Expecting perfection in the beginning…how niave we are

What type of person are you?

Do you expect perfection from day one or do you allow yourself the chance to fail and become better?

For me, I tend to bounce back and fourth. One day I can be very optimistic that I am growing and becoming a little better and then the next day I can feel completely miserable with my progress or lack there of. 


I’ve read this quote a lot lately ( and a few others

Writing inspiration and March goals :)

What is your story??

How many times a day does your brain tell you that “you should be writing” vs doing whatever else your doing? Mine tends to whisper sweet nothings in my ear around 4am and then again at 7am…noon…8pm… oh and of course while I’m about to fall asleep (you know that voice) the one who figures out all the plot holes or  a way the story could move forward just when your comfortable and almost fully asleep. πŸ˜’πŸ™ƒ

I personally feel I have plot foxes 🦊 vs bunnies 🐰 due to their sneaky habits and bad timing for showing up. 

 But why do they feel so compelled to speak?

What is the reason behind those little voices telling you that you must write? 

What is your story?

Whatever reason you had for first sitting down and taking pen to paper, you need to find that again and hold tight to that feeling. Your the only one who can tell a story with your unique point of view, no one else can do it for you. 

So Write! 

I keep a pad of paper on me at all times (or a post it pad) so that I can jot down a few notes whenever they come to me. 😏being smarter than the plot foxes πŸ‘ŒπŸΌ

I always carry a notebook in my bag too,for the times I actually have a break and can sit with full focus. 

That way, even if I’m really busy I can listen to my little voices. 🦊

However, I do tend to have more notes than completed chapters. So that brings me to my March Writing Goals 😊

This month I’m giving myself a deadline of 15,000 words, written in complete sentences.  Which is a simple goal of 500 words a day.

I’m giving myself the 31st to polish my final work, so if you noticed my numbers didn’t add up, that’s why ☺️

Every evening I’ll post my daily word count, to keep myself accountable. Like we all did for NaNoWriMo.

I will be posting on my Instagram account which can be found here My Instagram

And it will carry over to my Facebook page as well, My Facebook

So if your active on either one of those be sure to follow me and feel free to join me this month! I’d love the compmany!

Just comment or message me and let me know your in 😊

Jen

What if I’m really lost?…

What if?

What if sleeping beauty never woke up?…What if Aladdin never found the lamp?… What if Belle’s mother enchanted the beast?? 😳

My life if full of “What if’s” lately. Between the lovely ya books my mother purchased for me and the business end of my life, I haven’t had a single day this year that I haven’t said “what if” a dozen times before falling asleep… and to me, that says I’m not living the life I want. 

I’m not doing what makes me happy and I’m not using the time given to me wisely.  But how I’m the heck to I brake this rut?? 😞 I really should change my usernames to “forever stuck” lol 

But seriously though, it’s time to climb out of this ditch and find my motivation again. πŸ“– 

I had promised a post a week (which fell on Wednesdays) and that is what I plan to do. My goal was/ is to compile interesting yet entertaining posts, even if they’re just a short rambling about my week 😊 

So be prepared for a random, uneducated blog posts people! I’m coming for your screen! Lol πŸ˜‚

We all start somewhere right? 

Jen

Did the inspiration die??

πŸ‘©πŸ»β€πŸ’» Where have the social writers gone?

Did you do  NaNoWriMo this year??

(If so, drop a comment and let me know your thoughts on it)

This year I participated for the first time and I must say I was greatly inspired and enjoyed the chaotic mess. 😊 (I’m more than a little weird… I know)

The deadlines were hard to reach some days but I muddled through and figured it out. And by the end, in those blessed final hours… my computer even killed over and wouldn’t even allow me to verify my final entry. 😞 *deep sigh* Words cannot explain my frustration at that time. 

But I did it and I’m glad I did. Nothing beats a little challenge every now and then. And the people I met along the way were simply amazing and inspiring πŸ’œ

But, now it’s all over. And I feel like a lot of people have ended along with it. 

When I started NaNoWriMo I found , met (and followed) many,many writers on my social media sites so I could meet new people and help support them on their journey. And now it seems like everyone has fallen off wagon and vanished…
Am I looking in all the wrong places or did the new year leave a few people behind?

I know writing everyday can be a challenge, believe me, I know. I battle with it Every.Single. Day. 

Not everyday I’m motivated to sit down and spill my thoughts out. And some days I’m completely terrified to get close to completion because that means taking the next step of actually showing someone my work and being critiqued on it πŸ™ˆ

But even with all that, I don’t stop. My head is always buzzing and moving along even if my hands won’t. 

My mentality is, why work so hard at something if your just going to give up?

And a prolonged break is giving up. 

So lets not give up! Lets make new contacts and add more people to our friend zone πŸ€— and keep on keeping on ❣️

-end of random ramble lol

Jen

Antisocial writer just doing her thing β€

Happy Holidays my creative friends!!!

Tiss the season for happy thoughts and shared moments with close family and friends. 

And me, I’m sitting here just working on some paperwork and getting this 2nd draft underway. Honestly, I’m bad when it comes to socializing. I’d much rather (and feel more comfortable) sitting at my desk or on my couch, working away on the tasks at hand. 

And I tell ya, this writing thing is rough. It’s hard to find time to write and it’s not always easy explaining to people why it’s so important me. 

Lately, I’ve become a very firm believer in working on myself before anything else. And yes, that means being selfish and self centered by focusing on my personal goals above what others would like of me.
So that means I blow off a few friends (sorry guys) and social plans so I can have more time to focus on my writing and honing my skills.  
Not the nicest thing I know…But hey! Sometimes you gotta do you boo!

I can’t say I’ve found the perfect balance yet but I can say I’m working on it as the days go on. 
I’m trying to do my best these days to spend my time wisely and organize my goals by what’s the most important to me in the long run, not just for that moment. 

So here’s  to 2017 being the start of something even greater than what’s already planned 😊

πŸ˜‰πŸ‘©πŸ»β€πŸ’»

Jen