I waited for you…

I waited for you.

And I told myself that that was the last time I would waste any more moments of my life waiting on you to show up and show me you give a crap about me.

But here I am again.  Waiting.  It’s been almost an hour and I haven’t heard anything from you.  I’ve been replaying last night. How you subtly brushed into me and slipped these keys into my hand and told me that you needed to see me. “I miss you, please.” You texted after you walked away. In that moment my mind ran from excitement to worry, from confusion to comfort…  And now I’m here again, confused, frustrated… hoping…waiting. I can’t convince myself to leave and stop waiting for you. Why can’t I leave you? Why can’t I leave you hanging on the thought that I didn’t show? God, that would be such karmic justice.

These damn keys. I spin them around on my finger until they fly off and fall to the floor board on the passenger side. Ugh!

I get out, go around the car and scoop up the keys. The sky is pitch black making the stars seem brighter than normal and the moon is so engorged I can feel it’s energy. Between the moon and the smell of sea salt in the air… damn you. I get back in the car and slam the door shut, I crack the windows to let the the salt air in and I sit back and I wait.    Lights flash into the parking lot, my heart skips a beat and my breath catches in my throat for split second. You’re here?.. It’s not you, the sedan parks and a couple gets out and carry’s their sleeping child into the hotel lobby.

And just like that, I feel broken. Like you have physically sliced into my heart and I just sit here bleeding. I let you do this, I gave you the power to make me feel small and insignificant.

But dammit! I do miss you. I feel so drawn to you, that I can’t sleep unless I pass out thinking of you beside me.

I’m getting anxious and it’s driving me to sickness, I can’t wait here like this. I turn on my headlights and pull out of the parking lot like I just murdered someone in one of the rooms.

Slow down Emma, you don’t need to bring attention to yourself.

What if you’re parking right now? What if you just passed me and your parking right now? NOPE! I’m not going to think about that, I’m going to keep driving. You’ve still not so much as texted me.

I park outside of a closed shop, I’m better off walking for a bit instead of driving like a mad women down the road. The last thing I need in my life right now is a speeding ticket or a night in jail. Besides that, the sound of the waves, the smell the of sea air and this beautiful sky is screaming for me to enjoy it. It’s calling me to get lost.

And that’s what I need right now… to be lost from you.

 

~A.G

 

 

The great Kindle mishap

Well, it’s finally working!!

Thanks to my brother getting bored and deciding to tinker with it ☺️

He managed to get it into a full reboot mode and then I just needed to set it back up and download all my books again.

Now I know whenever I’m having issues with an electronic device, just leave it somewhere my brother will see it and wait for him to get bored 😂

So now I can finally sit down and get started on The Dark Web Murders 🕷

Now on for some tea, a re-read over my current 15,000-word project and packing for this weekend 😊

I’m so happy with the things going on in my life right now. Certain aspects are nipping my heels and causing more stress than I care to deal with, but I’m use to the battle. It’s part of life.

Happy reading everyone!

\AG/

The reason why I prefer Real books over digital

This, this picture right here sums up my entire reason for being annoyed and making this blog post 😭

This darn Kindle has been on the fritz since last week!

I can’t get it to do anything except freeze on the start up screen 🤦🏻‍♀️

I hate ebooks. I really do.

I mean, I enjoy them when it comes to packing up and moving around, which I do a lot of. But I can’t and never will get over the enjoyment of browsing a bookstore and walking out with a heavy stack of brand new reads 😊

But this! Oh My God!

I bought my first ebook in months and can’t even begin to take a look at.

I know I could read it on my phone, but damn, aren’t we on the phone enough these days? Besides, I BOUGHT A KINDLE for that very reason! 😫

The frustration is real….

Eternal Youth

Don’t we all feel like living forever young at some point in our life?

Well guess what I’m doing? I’m sitting her in the 1950’s pretending I’ve bleached my hair so much that my brain cells have been damaged to the point that I have no answers for any questions that may come my way.

I’m physically having to sit on my hands and tell people “I’m sorry, I don’t know. You’ll have to ask someone else” simply because I’m being to bossy for those who’s egos are to frail to work as a team.

I am dumbstruck to the point of laughter lol

I’ve already been asked what’s wrong and have a handful of people thinking I’m now mad at them because I keep sending them elsewhere with their questions. 

“You don’t know? You never not know, and even when you really don’t know , you get me the answers faster than anyone else. so what did I do to piss you off into silence” 

Yes, normally I do.    I’m a busy bee, workaholic, I know how to ask questions and feel timeliness is important. If I don’t know the answer to something, I figure out who does or who would know and hit them for the info. Simple as that.

But that is over kill apparently.  And it is proving an extreme struggle to break everyone (including myself) of the habits we have become so use to. 

I can’t even ask someone to make sure they don’t forget something without being looked at like insolent women who’s speaking out of turn. LOL

And that’s my new thing now, I want a coffee mug that says “Insolent Women” just so I can display it on my desk 😉

 I am very opinionated, blunt and to the point in 90% of my life. We all know it’s 2019 and most people these days are to sensitive for straight forward talk, but you’d think there would still be a handful of people who could carry on adult conversation and not feel so threatened by straightforwardness.

So here I am, pretending I don’t care about a thing.  Pretending I am a shy, quiet female with no spine or knowledge of my surroundings. 

We’ll see how long this last.

 

\AG/

Life may be like a box of chocolates but someone threw some mud balls in there too

Saints be praised!

I’ve been up since 2am today! (which is totally normal for me because I’m a weirdo 😂) But, this morning I finally finished going through the stack of files that have been laying on my desk for 2 months! 😳🤩

My desk finally looks organized and back to it’s creative station. Which is ideal for Nanowrimo being right around the corner 👌🏼

Plus! I’ve spent the last week doing some revision on things going on in my daily 9-5 muggle life, turns out my ”bossy” attitude has done some good for my team. The company is happy with them, they don’t feel the need to spy on them or be down their throats on anything.

Who doesn’t like a boss who trusts you enough to just let you work?? 🙃

Now if we could just keep this routine going without the random delays and hiccups from newbs, we might be able to finish this project with some high marks.

Maybe it’s all this fresh fall weather making people more pleasant to be around? Lol I know a few who need to get started now on their ule tide joy if they want good marks come Christmas 😂😂

But let’s not talk about that Holiday when we have more important one’s like Halloween to worry about 😉

Its Autumn!!

Seriously my favorite season EVER!!!

I’m so happy 🙃

And the things going on in my life right now, guys I couldn’t be heading in any better direction ✌🏼

My second book is so close to be released that I can already smell that new book smell 💗

My Patreon account has been re-opened thanks to the handful of people who have been showing me some love and have been wanting to know how best they can support me at this time.

Here’s the link if your interested – Spread the love

As for my third book… this story is so vivid in my head right now I’m beginning to feel like it’s already written and ready to be released to you all 😅🙌🏼

My heart is so full right now my words feel like jumbled up garbage 😂

Jen

Actively procrastinating and losing my mind :) + Publication updates

Let’s be real here, people that seem to always find loads of time to write and research their work…… SUCK BALLS!!  lol  

No, no you don’t.  I suck.

I suck because I can’t seem to get my head together and focus on my writing. *insert face palm emoji here* lol

Everyone else that plans and manages their time better than I do, are worth plenty of praise. You guys are all bombshell people and are the standards I should be living up to. ❤

So, to proceed with my ” I’m mad I’m not writing, so I’m going to write a blog about how mad I am” post :’D

I’m currently 5 chapters into my next novella… and stuck on so many stupid little details…

We are 24 chapters into Stonecrest (Whoop Whoop!!) and I have all confidence we should publish the eBook before the year is out 😀 And Hopefully the paperback will follow right behind it ❤

I’m super excited to physically be lining up books for publications, I really didn’t see myself being at this point by this year. Not that I didn’t (Don’t) have high hopes for my life and writing career, I just try to be down to earth and realistic about the workloads I put on myself and didn’t think it would be a realistic goal for this year… but maybe I’m being to lenient on myself and lowering the bar a bit to much?  

Maybe I can manage everything just a little better and readjust my goals and plans?

Maybe I should stop saying “Maybe” and Just do it as the Nike brand says.  Lol

I am aiming towards having my next eBook out this year and shortly after, if the publishers like it, having the paperback follow right along.  And then early/mid 2020 having my next novella published as well ❤

 

And now that I’ve rambled for a few moments, my brain feels empty enough I can now focus on book and work on some research.

And hopefully get to bed at a decent time frame …. 

Traveling with pets

Always Call AHEAD!

I think that is the biggest piece of advice I can give you and I cannot stress it enough.

Even if the website says “Pets accepted/allowed”, it’s always safe to call ahead and verify their statements.  9/10 there are restrictions or hidden fees involved when you travel with your furry (or feathery, scally ) pets 🙂 So don’t let yourself be blindsided.

When you call to inquire to about their pet policy, always be sure to ask about breed restrictions and any hidden fees. Be specific!  Don’t shy away from asking to many questions, these are your kiddo’s, your companions, and best friends so ask even the smallest questions that come to mind.

I’ve dealt with some places that are very upfront with their pet policy’s, including breed/species restrictions and weight limits. But I’ve also dealt with the more shady sided places who won’t tell you all the fees involved with having your pet stay with them or won’t be as upfront with you about their breed/ species and weight restrictions.  And that can mean extra charges that you’re not budgeted for.

And just because the website doesn’t mention a pet policy, it does not mean they don’t have one. So again, Don’t forget to ask.

 

And that’s something else to be mindful of, independently owned establishments who can set (and change) their own rules at a whim.

Yes, it happens.

I’ve stayed in places that swear up and down a specific breed is not allowed and will fight you about allowing your pet to stay,  but when you walk around and look, you’ll see plenty of other owners out walking that very breed.  And they don’t always have that service pet stamp of approval.  Sometime’s they just drew the long straw when they signed in.

I have even had hotels begin to deny a service pet on grounds that they didn’t want to deal with the room cleaning that “most pets leave when you check out”…. Yup…  And boy did I have a lengthy conversation with that owner.

But not all places are out to get you or make it twice as hard for you to travel with your pets.

I’ve stayed in a few places that actually allowed a pet that they would normally deem “restricted” because they saw how obedient and well-mannered they were.   And a couple of hotels even allowed me to stay with my pet for no fee do to his smallness and lack of messy behavior. These people are the real MVP’s in my eyes.   They don’t judge a book by its cover and they allow for loopholes in their policies so they can better accommodate their guests and renters.

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I wish more places would be that way and more open-minded to certain breeds and pets. Some really don’t deserve the bad reputation they have acquired.

Be sure to be polite about you inquiries 

When you call up a hotel or an apartments leasing office, don’t jump down their throats the second they start steering you away from bringing your pet.  Some of the people you’re talking to are simply doing their job and following the procedures set by their employers.  

While I know some places are rude from the moment they answer the phone to the time you check out, you just have to take the higher road and keep a professional tone and outlook for the sake of your pets.  Sometimes you just may be catching someone on a bad day, or they may have just spoken to someone before you who screamed and cursed them when they were denied permission to keep a loose pet snake in one of their rooms.   

I’ve listened to this phone call, it happens lol

So keep it cool and collect. And remember the old phrase ” You catch more fly’s with honey than you do with vinegar“.

Be honest about your pet

The second most important thing I can stress while you look at traveling with your pets.

Don’t tell them spike is well potty trained if in fact, he messes on the floor when he’s left alone.  Or he has separation anxiety and may tear up the furniture or chew chair legs when you run out to get groceries or have dinner.

Don’t promise them that the pet stays in his cage unless supervised, when your normal is letting them have free run of the bathroom while you’re at work.

Be honest about their vaccine history.  Like taking your pet to a daycare, you want him/her to be protected from anything they may come in contact with.  So be sure to keep up to date on your vaccines , flea/tick prevention and heartworm medications. 

And it doesn’t hurt ( I recommend it actually) to check out the area you will be in and talk with your Vet about any issues that may be more common in that region VS your home town.    A city pet may not need to worry about ticks as much as a country pet would. So keep that in some cases your pet may need a little extra protection.

I could go into so much more detail, but I think this a good start.

I’m all for traveling and being able to take your pets with you, I don’t know how some people can go without the comfort of a pet.? For me, its truly a challenge. And I would much rather pay a little extra or look a little harder to find the right place for me and my kiddo’s 🙂

Life things- Mini update

I take so many random and strange photos when I travel 😊

Honestly, most of the time I’m only taking the pictures to capture the feeling I had in that moment.

Memories are magical

So in the last few weeks I’ve found a screw in my tire (🤔 to convenient), I’ve had a girls trip to Mississippi to pick up my sister

We hit a few choice spots when we headed back ✌🏼

We also ended up spending the night in Atlanta due to finding a bubble in one of my other tires ( tires and me have no damn luck 🤦🏻‍♀️)… it was an irritating delay in our plans but we made the most of it and ended up having a great day while we waited for a spare 😊

And after all that, I spent an entire weekend revising and editing a few pieces I’ve been procrastinating on.

It feels so damn good to sit down and write lately. And I mean good.

I feel like my voice changes from time to time, but for the most part, it stands true to who I am and what I’m trying to share with the world.

I’m so thankful for you guys who listen to me and share your own stories with me 😊 It’s amazing to be in such an inspiring community.

Keep the lights on your muse 💋

Facebook and Instagram have taken a holiday…

And I’m sure I’m suppose to be extremely freaked out… but honestly….

I’m only trying to figure out how to talk with the few social media friends I spoke with regularly 😂 ( note to self, exchange emails from now on ).

I don’t even care that a combined 15yrs of pictures and videos could be lost, hundreds of networking connections gone in a blink of an eye or that I can’t scroll through and see what’s going on in the lives of the “insta famous” influencers I follow and friends and family back home 🤷🏻‍♀️

In a way, I’m glad this happened.

It’s shown me that I’m not dependent on social media, I just use it out of boredom, procrastination and the occasionally “What’s aunt Tilly been up to lately” 💁🏻‍♀️😄

So, for those who don’t know (which is probably very few of you) Facebook and all related apps – WhatsApp and Instagram- Crashed today worldwide.

And we’ve been given very little information as to why this happened or what caused it …

Facebook did take to Twitter and reported that they are..

“aware that some people are currently having trouble accessing the Facebook family of apps. We’re working to resolve the issue as soon as possible.”

And then again later, via Twitter announced…

“We’re focused on working to resolve the issue as soon as possible, but can confirm that the issue is not related to a DDoS attack.”

Other than that, social media users have received no further information as to the cause of the crash or the expected duration. And let me tell you, people are freaking out!

Twitter has exploded with tweets about the outages. #FacebookDown and #InstagramDown are now two of the top trending tags on the platform.

People are even creating tweets, joking that MySpace has finally received an open window at a chance to regain its popularity 😂 (Anyone remember there old account info?)

Now not all of us are as lost as others. For some, the apps are only glitching and causing minor inconveniences.

But once you start trying to troubleshoot the issue (like I did before realizing what was really going on) you get logged out entirely and are unable to access anything. So you don’t even have the peace of mind of knowing your content is safe and still right where you left it.

*Deep breaths. It will all be ok

So, what’s going on? Will we wake up tomorrow and all will be well?

Or do you think this will last longer?

I’m curious to know you’re thoughts