A writers time is now

“We’re not meant to be normal”

I’ve heard that so many times in the last week, in regards to writers and the overly creative hearts.

We really aren’t meant to be normal, not even a little bit. We can pretend we enjoy the nitty gritty of the real world and work right along with the best of them, building our name, climbing the ladder of success.

But are we truly happy doing it?

We can justify the money, the acknowledgment and the sense of achievement we get from moving on up in the real world…. but are we really truly happy and fulfilled?

I feel, in most cases, we are not.

Not unless that ladder and those achievements revolve around our need to be creative. Because that is our real world.

Some of us are not meant to feel fulfilled working the 9-5 gimmick.

I honestly end up feeling so stifled and hushed once I reach the point in my muggle job where things are running in an autopilot mode and I no longer feel challenged.

In some cases, I like it. The more I run on auto at work, the faster I get things done and (in reality) the sooner I am released to focus on my writing.

But In most cases, that isn’t how things play out.

I usually end up with more on my plate simply because I’ve proven myself to be a reliable asset and dedicated worker .

If only they knew I really just wanted to leave , sip on some tea and get lost in a few far away worlds.

I know this started off as smart and turned into a ramble rant lol but heck, that’s how my mind has been running lately.

Might as well just go with it

Jen

This is what words look like? lol…

Same old, same old with me.

I’ve been working a lot and not spending as much time as I need to be spending on my writing or my current TBR pile… I’m afraid I’ll not reach the end of these books anytime soon…

I’m really hoping to spend this weekend working on a few revisions and some edits for a new project of mine.      I’m excited to see this one through to the end. It’s only one of a few stories I’ve come up with that I honestly have no idea what the ending will be like, so It’s bringing up a few new challenges and struggles for me.

I’ve been tinkering with the idea (and doing some light research) on finding a literary agent for my books…  Not sure what will come of this just yet, but it’s an idea that has come to mind a few times and I feel it’s worth the energy to look into a bit more.

On the TBR pile note: I’ve stacked up a good …12…16… I honestly lost count lol       

But! I’m determined to finish at least one before the month is over!  So I need to get cracking on it!

My reading pace has slowed way down since this time last year…ugh… I need to work on bringing it back up to snuff

 

Anyway! There’s my mini life update 🙂 

Jen

Why must we (as writers) explain our need to write?

Ok, so writing-related post here (of course, why am I even stating it?) I don’t know lol.

Anyway, writing.

Or better yet, What I’m writing these days.

Right now, I’m working on my next book series (7 in total) along with two other novels.  I’m hoping to have completed the 2 novels by the end of this year and to have most of my 7-book series, somewhat laid out and organized.

It’s honestly been rough trying to find the time (an energy) to sit down, relax my brain, and focus on my stories lately.

I’ve felt very stifled recently.

It seems the more I try to focus on my work, the more I’m needing to explain myself and the importance of my writing. I do believe no one really understands the creative process or how much it means to someone until they themselves have tried to create something they’re passionate about.

And It’s not like I’m completely shutting myself off from the world (even though I’d love to do that right about now). I’m honestly trying my hardest to balance it all.

Yes, I’m still young enough to believe it is fully possible to do what you love, hold a steady job (if it’s not your passion you’ve turned into a thriving business) and still manages to have an active social life.

I see all these writers on social media out having a blast with their friends, traveling to book conventions and enjoying writing seminaries, all while still managing to put out new content and publications.  And I’m always left feeling very underachieved and behind with the times.

And then having to justify why I want to spend an hour reading or why I like to spend time/money in a bookstore, just makes me even more irritated and frustrated with life.

Ugh!

Lol, I’m not mopping right, to be honest.

I’m just venting out my frustrations in the hope I’m not the only one dealing with these issues.

The life of a writer, I suppose.

Rant over lol

-Jen

Are we even still around?

It’s been a long, long time since I sat down and let the voices in my head run freely onto the page (or screen)…

I believe they are starting to question my love for them and if I still care enough about them to ever set them free.

 

So, with that being said.  I’m sitting here sipping on my second cup of green tea while I try to figure out what exactly made me give up and stopped writing so much.    I have an amazing (If I toot my own horn- Toot Toot 😉 lol ) story sitting in my briefcase halfway through the second draft, and countless other notes and partial stories sitting right alongside it.  So why am I not diving into completing them??

I keep saying its “Life” and getting too caught up with working versus relaxing and taking the time to “work” on what I love and what one day I hope will be one of my main sources of financial stability. But the fact is, or what I now have come to terms with, is it’s not “Life” that is throwing a wrench in my brain train, its that I’ve lost my sense of privacy.

I’m a very private writer, I like to lock myself up in my house (or room… or car… or hide in the woods.. lol whichever fuels my thought process) and since I’ve switched jobs and have been spending more time traveling and not really having a set schedule to go by, my mind just doesn’t seem to feel as free as it did when I was home.

It is far beyond time to change that.

It’s been a while….

So, I’m no longer in Georgia with access to a lovely poolside view 😔…

Nope, I’m currently in South Carolina! 🙌🏼 After staying for a month in a “ok” hotel, I’m now set up in a cute little farm house out in the boonies lol.

(Seriously, cell service and internet connection vary depending on the weather).

And speaking of weather.

For about 2 minutes it snowed down here yesterday! 😳 Yes, snowed.

Only after it rained all morning though and then when that brief 2 minutes of snow ended… the ice pellets began to fall and the roads became slip-n-slides.

Gotta love the south for their random weather 🤷🏻‍♀️😂

Here’s a little peak out my upstairs window.

More pictures to come as soon as I remove the work related photos from my SD card 👌🏼

Jen

Work flow rant… Are you an early bird?

So not all of us are morning people, I get that.

Some of us can wake up at the crack of dawn and jump right into a brain teasing project, while others need that grande cup of coffee before they can even put they’re clothes on!

Some of us can stay up at all hours of the night, getting 3hrs sleep and still work a full day without much complaint.   

While I on the other hand would be dragging myself like a zombie, straight from my bed and over to a gallon of 5hour energy 😜

We’re all different and that’s ok.  

There’s no need to try to be like anyone else or feel threatened by someone else’s abilities.

I consider myself a workaholic and an early bird, simply because I’m always working on one project or another and I never sleep past 5:30am. 🤷 (and some days its earlier)

I am the 20-25 minutes early, everyday type when it comes to my jobs. (Yup, every job I’ve had) And yes, I’ve received backlash about it from coworkers who think I’m sucking up to the boss and making them look bad.

I even had a coworker tell me once, that I was making them look bad for working so much and getting things completed early and asked if I would slow down some and take a little more time doing things.

And yes,  at the time I tried to be nice and I did what they asked, only to then have them turn around and complain about how slow I was and that I wasn’t completing things fast enough 😳 ( naïve little me) 

For me, my pace and early arrival to work is a sign of my work ethic.  Not anyone else’s , just mine and mine alone. 

I require a lot of myself. And being, not only on time but early is one of my top priorities.  

Within 30 minutes to and hour of me waking up, I’m ready to smash out the day. I have a list of tasks I need to get done and even a list of things I’d like to do if I finish latter early enough.  

And I like my early mornings, I accomplish so much more in a day by just getting started at a decent time. (Well decent for me and crazy for others lol) 

With my current job, there has been many mornings that all hell has broken loose within 3-5 minutes of our doors opening 😳

So if I were to walk in the building right at opening time and try to complete the list of morning chores I have there Plus try to handle the bussyness, I would be running around my morning feeling rushed and flustered with the amount of work ahead of me.  

And that’s just how I am. 


If it makes you feel accomplished, satisfied, and happy then do it. But don’t belittle or cause rifts with other people who don’t do it your way.  

For some people, they thrive on being extremely busy the moment they arrive to work. And more power to you if you can keep your cool in hectic situations! 👌🏼 But for me, I need those few minutes of peace and quiet to acclamate myself to the tasks at hand. 
So, are you an early bird or no?

Can you handle immediant bussyness or do you need a few minutes to warm up and get ready for the run?

I’d love to hear your thoughts 😊

Jen

Expecting perfection in the beginning…how niave we are

What type of person are you?

Do you expect perfection from day one or do you allow yourself the chance to fail and become better?

For me, I tend to bounce back and fourth. One day I can be very optimistic that I am growing and becoming a little better and then the next day I can feel completely miserable with my progress or lack there of. 


I’ve read this quote a lot lately ( and a few others

What if I’m really lost?…

What if?

What if sleeping beauty never woke up?…What if Aladdin never found the lamp?… What if Belle’s mother enchanted the beast?? 😳

My life if full of “What if’s” lately. Between the lovely ya books my mother purchased for me and the business end of my life, I haven’t had a single day this year that I haven’t said “what if” a dozen times before falling asleep… and to me, that says I’m not living the life I want. 

I’m not doing what makes me happy and I’m not using the time given to me wisely.  But how I’m the heck to I brake this rut?? 😞 I really should change my usernames to “forever stuck” lol 

But seriously though, it’s time to climb out of this ditch and find my motivation again. 📖 

I had promised a post a week (which fell on Wednesdays) and that is what I plan to do. My goal was/ is to compile interesting yet entertaining posts, even if they’re just a short rambling about my week 😊 

So be prepared for a random, uneducated blog posts people! I’m coming for your screen! Lol 😂

We all start somewhere right? 

Jen

Did the inspiration die??

👩🏻‍💻 Where have the social writers gone?

Did you do  NaNoWriMo this year??

(If so, drop a comment and let me know your thoughts on it)

This year I participated for the first time and I must say I was greatly inspired and enjoyed the chaotic mess. 😊 (I’m more than a little weird… I know)

The deadlines were hard to reach some days but I muddled through and figured it out. And by the end, in those blessed final hours… my computer even killed over and wouldn’t even allow me to verify my final entry. 😞 *deep sigh* Words cannot explain my frustration at that time. 

But I did it and I’m glad I did. Nothing beats a little challenge every now and then. And the people I met along the way were simply amazing and inspiring 💜

But, now it’s all over. And I feel like a lot of people have ended along with it. 

When I started NaNoWriMo I found , met (and followed) many,many writers on my social media sites so I could meet new people and help support them on their journey. And now it seems like everyone has fallen off wagon and vanished…
Am I looking in all the wrong places or did the new year leave a few people behind?

I know writing everyday can be a challenge, believe me, I know. I battle with it Every.Single. Day. 

Not everyday I’m motivated to sit down and spill my thoughts out. And some days I’m completely terrified to get close to completion because that means taking the next step of actually showing someone my work and being critiqued on it 🙈

But even with all that, I don’t stop. My head is always buzzing and moving along even if my hands won’t. 

My mentality is, why work so hard at something if your just going to give up?

And a prolonged break is giving up. 

So lets not give up! Lets make new contacts and add more people to our friend zone 🤗 and keep on keeping on ❣️

-end of random ramble lol

Jen

Antisocial writer just doing her thing ❤

Happy Holidays my creative friends!!!

Tiss the season for happy thoughts and shared moments with close family and friends. 

And me, I’m sitting here just working on some paperwork and getting this 2nd draft underway. Honestly, I’m bad when it comes to socializing. I’d much rather (and feel more comfortable) sitting at my desk or on my couch, working away on the tasks at hand. 

And I tell ya, this writing thing is rough. It’s hard to find time to write and it’s not always easy explaining to people why it’s so important me. 

Lately, I’ve become a very firm believer in working on myself before anything else. And yes, that means being selfish and self centered by focusing on my personal goals above what others would like of me.
So that means I blow off a few friends (sorry guys) and social plans so I can have more time to focus on my writing and honing my skills.  
Not the nicest thing I know…But hey! Sometimes you gotta do you boo!

I can’t say I’ve found the perfect balance yet but I can say I’m working on it as the days go on. 
I’m trying to do my best these days to spend my time wisely and organize my goals by what’s the most important to me in the long run, not just for that moment. 

So here’s  to 2017 being the start of something even greater than what’s already planned 😊

😉👩🏻‍💻

Jen